Katsu Kuno
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Post by Katsu Kuno on Dec 17, 2016 22:02:39 GMT 1
[googlefont="VT323"] Computers are magnificent tools for the realization of our dreams, but no machine can replace the human spark of spirit, compassion, love, and understanding. Katsu paced around his room during curfew. Thirty minutes they were forced to be in their room. His medication was safely hidden under his pillow, though he was pretty sure others knew of his hiding spot, so he kept changing it. Before it had been under his bed, hidden behind a tower of cans, things like that. However, earlier today they were forced to wear these bracelets, and his forbidden action made him very uneasy. To the point he didn't even tell Tomoe his NG code, despite the fact she had told him hers. He needed to take an action, and so earlier today, he had slipped Tomoe a note to meet him in the Rec Room of the new floor after curfew was over so they could talk. While he was pretty sure he wouldn't trust a note from anyone other than Tomoe, he hoped that Tomoe would trust a note from him.
Katsu quickly dashed from the boy's room the instant curfew ended, though he could fee his body becoming weaker and weaker. As he slowed to a walk as he found his way to the lower floor Katsu felt his body starting to give out, falling to the ground in front of the door to the rec room. For a moment, he just sat there, thinking about how much this royally sucked. His body was killing him. And it was getting worse. Taking a deep breath Katsu pushed himself up and tried to grip the door handle, but his hand didn't want to hold tight enough. For several moments he struggled with the door knob before it finally opened.
Walking inside, Katsu finally took a seat in one of the chairs in the large rec room. He wished he didn't have to do what he was about to do with Tomoe. They could've had so much fun in here, if he wasn't a stupid fuck up who insisted on… Calm down. He knew he had to do this. This was the only way to get both of them out of here. And hopefully as many others along with them.
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Tomoe Sunada
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Post by Tomoe Sunada on Dec 17, 2016 22:39:34 GMT 1
“Meet me after curfew in the rec room of the 7th floor. We need to talk.”
Was it a mistake for Tomoe to follow the note’s directions after everything that had just happened? Without a doubt, some people here would say yes of course it was stupid, four people are dead Tomoe don’t be stupid. But if Tomoe had one fault it was that she couldn’t just ignore a note from one of her friends if they asked to meet her, so after Katsu had given her the note Tomoe had quickly made up her mind to meet him like he asked her to.
For some reason the place seemed larger already, which made no sense because none of the girls had died yet of the four people who were breathing and talking and everything else just the other day that were no longer doing any of that (unless you wanted to count Jeanne, but that was kind of a gray area) and yet you can’t help but feel like there was a little more room than there was before, and that was something that made her heart hurt. They had all died before they all really got a chance to be best of friends. This was horrible news.
Not wanting to think about any more dead people for the time being, Tomoe slipped out of her room as soon as she was allowed by the rules and made her way towards the seventh floor, trying to puzzle out what on earth he wanted to talk to her this late at night about. It must be something super important for her friend to call her out like this and for just a moment a flicker of panic entered her heart and her pace quickened as she made her way to the rec room. Was he sick? Was he hurt? He could have said something earlier and she would have treated him, he didn’t have to be coy about it.
“Kachan?” She stuck her head into the rec room first and looked around, spotting the hacker in one of the chairs in the room. He didn’t look deathly ill, and Tomoe’s brow furrowed before she gave a small shrug and she entered the room without a second thought, not a care in the world about why he had asked her to come here this late at night.
“Is something wrong, Kachan?”
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Katsu Kuno
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Post by Katsu Kuno on Dec 17, 2016 23:09:58 GMT 1
[googlefont="VT323"] Computers are magnificent tools for the realization of our dreams, but no machine can replace the human spark of spirit, compassion, love, and understanding. Katsu was hoping that she wouldn't come. That this was just all a mistake and she wouldn’t come and that would show it was a mistake but when she opened the door his heart both leap up and sank down at the same time. Just seeing her was great, and made his heart do circus tricks, but the fact he knew what he was going to do in just a few moments, sank his heart lower than it ever had been before. It was such a weird conflicting feeling he wasn't sure exactly what he was supposed to be feeling.
Katsu smiled, though his smile was a bit sad, and he used the chair as a support to stand up. He slowly walked over to Tomoe, trying to convince himself out of what he was about to do as he did so. Having been so trusted by the girl, Katsu knew he had to be careful with next steps. He walked over to Tomoe and kissed her cheek as he placed her arms comfortably behind her back and he hugged her, holding her arms still behind her back as a precaution.
He stayed like this for several moments, savoring the feeling, the smells, the warmth that came from such a hug. He sighed as he waited, flip flopping in his mind. He had to do it. He just needed to rip off the band-aid.
"Tomoe. I have… good news and I have bad news… I…" Katsu trailed off and took a deep breath releasing the one sided hug. "The good news is… I finally have the courage to tell you something I've always wanted to tell you…" Katsu looked off blushing slightly before his eyes returned hers, a look of determination in his eyes. "I love you Tomoe. I love you so much. I've loved you for ages. I love you so much, just looking at you, being around you… It makes me so happy." Katsu clenched his fists to avoid just diving in and kissing her on the lips, instead settling for another kiss on her cheek. "Everything you do, every time you smile, I smile. Anytime you weep, I weep. I want you to be happy… and that's why I have to deliver you the bad news."
Katsu looked at her with fear in his eyes. Oh god, this was the moment of truth. "I… don't want you to die. Like the others did…" Katsu looked down at his bracelet and covered it, his thumb lightly stroking it with nervousness. "I-I'm afraid that… our relationship will put you in danger. I love you, and everyone out there… if they knew how much I loved you, they would target you or I because… Because I would do anything for you, even die for you. I can't let them… try to hurt you. Th-That's why… we have to pretend to not be friends. We… can't be seen together around others… because I want them to think I don't have these feelings for you… and… then try to… hurt you because of them. We can… hang out in private, usually at night, but during the day… when others are around, we have to pretend to hate each other."
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Tomoe Sunada
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Post by Tomoe Sunada on Dec 19, 2016 0:37:53 GMT 1
This wasn't what she thought was going to happen. Not that she had any real idea for what she thought what was going to happen was, for all she knew Katsu had called her here so that they could play doctor again. It wouldn’t have been the first time that the two of them had been alone late at night to just play board games like operation, as a small group of weirdos could probably attest to, wherever they were these days. But what she didn’t expect was that Katsu would kiss her on the cheek and hold her arms behind her back so she couldn’t hug him back.
His good news cut her off guard a bit, if she was to tell the truth. Nothing what he was saying made any sense to her head, he couldn’t possibly be talking about this Tomoe, meani9ng her. There had to be some other Tomoe that she didn’t know about, that’s the Tomoe he must be talking about and he was confused. After all, nobody loved Tomoe, not once in the entire time she had been alive, it was downright impossible. Tomoe was so busy trying to figure out who the other Tomoe could be that she almost didn’t catch anything else Katsu had said except for something at the very end that snapped her back to reality.
[…]”we have to hate each other."
Ah, now those were words she’s heard before. Tomoe shook her head from side to side as she tried to clear any cobwebs that had formed in her mind as she tried to process everything Katsu had just laid on her, which you had to admit was a lot for the poor girl. He said he loved her but at the same time he said they couldn’t be friends anymore, wasn’t that backwards? Was he angry? Did she do something wrong? She probably did and she was just too stupid to realize what it was, because she really was a dumb useless girl who only did things to upset people. Now she was driving her only friend away and he was just making up an excuse so she wouldn’t feel bad about herself.
“Wait, Tomoe doesn’t understand at all.” Why was everything going wrong? All she wanted was for people to be nice and be friends, and now people were dead and Katsu didn’t want to hang out with her with people around anymore. Not that she was trying to say those two things were equal or anything like that, but she was just saying that this was far from the desired result from how things had started when they all woke up just a seemingly short time ago. If she had been able to she might have clung to Katsu here to try and make some plea, but she instead just wrings her hands just to have something to do
“What brought this on? Did Tomoe do something wrong? If she did something to make you upset, tell her and Tomoe will fix it.”
There was a small note of desperation in her voice, and she wasn’t ashamed to admit it. Katsu was her best friend, the person who she loved more than anyone or anything else, and she was driving him away like she did with everyone else she had known before him.
She really was a stupid useless girl.
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Katsu Kuno
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Post by Katsu Kuno on Dec 24, 2016 1:07:59 GMT 1
[googlefont="VT323"] Computers are magnificent tools for the realization of our dreams, but no machine can replace the human spark of spirit, compassion, love, and understanding. Oh god. He knew this was wrong, but it was already done. He couldn't stop himself now. He'd already started and he couldn't stop the snowball from gathering size as it rolled down the mountain of disappointment. He just wanted to protect her, and he didn't trust himself to be able to do it anymore, especially with this code. Everything would be so much easier if he weren't here, if he were to just die or get out of here somehow. Things would be easier for Tomoe because people wouldn't want to go after her for any reason, because she was the kindest and most lovable person he had ever met, and no one could tell him otherwise. He honestly could not see any reason that she wouldn't have all of these people as her friends. She was so kind and cute and amazing in everything she did.
And yet, here he was breaking her heart. He couldn't almost hear it when it broke, the fear, the desperation in her voice. Katsu turned away quickly and tried to hide his tears as they began to fall. He was causing her this pain. He was doing this to her. It was all his fault. But in the end… would it really cause more good than it did harm? Right now, he knew it was as if he were stabbing her heart. He was her friend and while his intentions were good, it didn't seem like she understood why and thus she was acting like this making things harder on his emotions as well. However, if it meant making Tomoe happy, he would take any damage it took in order to make her smile again and keep her safe at the same time.
"N-No. It's… all my fault…" Katsu turned back towards Tomoe, wiping a tear away from his face and placing both of his hands on her shoulders. "Please understand. I just want you to be safe. Once we get out of this factory… we can be happy. We can be together if you want. We could get married, and I would be the happiest man on the Earth. It's nothing wrong with you, please, know this. I love you. I really… really do. And that's why I want you safe. I want… I want us to have a future. We just have to do it for a little bit. That's all… Just a little bit. I promise. I want to be around you, and make you smile and make posters and play games, but we can't right now, or… you'll be in danger."
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Tomoe Sunada
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Post by Tomoe Sunada on Dec 30, 2016 6:01:01 GMT 1
The poor little hamsters on the wheel of Tomoe's mind had probably worked its poor little self to death by now as Tomoe tried to wrap her mind around everything that he was saying to her right now and for the most part failing, which is a little bit disappointing because the words themselves he was speaking weren’t complex or anything. What was really hanging her up were…well, two things really. Number one was the fact that his words seemed rather contradictory, sending mixed messages to the little vet girl and she wasn’t sure how she was supposed to take it.
He had started off with good news and he was saying things that were supposed to be good news, or so Tomoe thought. Aren’t you supposed to be happy when someone says that they love you, or that the option getting together when they all get to leave the factory or getting married (side note, is it odd to tell a fifteen-year-old that they could get married if they wanted? That doesn’t seem like the decision a fifteen-year-old should make) but at the same time that he was still demanding that they pretend to hate each other and she couldn’t figure out why this is what was necessary.
“B…But…”
God, this sucked. Tomoe was working hard to keep her hands to herself even though more than anything she wanted to embrace Katsu and tell him that there was no need for such a horrible plan that would serve to hurt feelings and break hearts but this stupid no good bracelet the mean bears who Tomoe was starting to think weren’t very nice even if they were still adorable , instead tapping her fingertips together as she blatantly stalls for time to give Katsu time to say “hey, just kidding. I just wanted to see how you’d react, we can still be best friends” but it got to the point where she didn’t think he was gonna say that.
“…Tomoe doesn’t want to hate you Katsu. She couldn’t, not ever you know.”
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Post by Katsu Kuno on Jan 8, 2017 2:41:26 GMT 1
[googlefont="VT323"] Computers are magnificent tools for the realization of our dreams, but no machine can replace the human spark of spirit, compassion, love, and understanding. Katsu wished he could say he was just kidding, but he was serious. Either he was cursed or blessed with being with Tomoe in this game so he could protect her, and he was willing to do anything it took to protect her. However, Katsu was trying hard to understand her feelings, which he was feeling as well, but both of them being alive was better than just pretending to not be friends for a little bit right? Katsu wasn't good with feelings but that made sense to him. He didn't understand why it was so hard for Tomoe, though he still felt like an asshole for doing this to her because she felt so betrayed, so heartbroken because of him. Because of him. It was all his fault. He just had to try to recover this while still protecting her like he was. Perhaps she would understand later better, and he really, really hoped she would too. But he couldn't turn back now. He couldn't think of any way out of this other than to endanger her further.
"You don't have… to actually hate me though… It's… you just have to pretend, like a game or something. I won't ever actually hate you. I just… We just… We can have fun and play games when others aren't looking. Whatever you want. I just don't want others to be jealous of us and hurt us because we're friends. And then when people are looking we pretend we had a fight, you see?" He wanted her to understand and not hate him for real because of what he was saying, he wanted to be able to be with her after all this was over and he would never ever leave her ever again and would never ever push her to do anything like this ever again. He'd rather die than go through this again.
"Tomoe… Please… I just… I want to protect you from the others. S-Someone already died… and… and I'm afraid someone will hurt you or I because we're friends…"
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Post by Tomoe Sunada on Feb 1, 2017 4:43:43 GMT 1
"Tomoe… Please… I just… I want to protect you from the others. S-Someone already died… and… and I'm afraid someone will hurt you or I because we're friends…"
He kept saying this, but who was he trying to fool? He could say whatever he wanted to say to justify it to himself, but Tomoe knew the truth. She thought all of this time that Katsu was different, that he was her best friend and that he cared about her and the first chance he gets when any real conflict comes up he decides to come up with this “we have to pretend to not be friends” plan? Like she couldn’t see through that shit. Did he think she was some kind of idiot?
“Liar. You’re a liar Katsu. You claim you love Tomoe, and that you don’t want anyone to hurt Tomoe, so you hurt Tomoe to protect yourself. You don’t care how she feels about any of this.”
The young girl scowled, her little fist clenched as she tried to fight away the tears that threatened to fall again as she pointed a stubby little finger at the other boy’s chest which didn’t violate her code apparently, so hey good job skirting by there Tomoe, living dangerously.
"Tomoe cared about you a lot; you say all these nice things. But in the end you’re just like everyone else, you abandon Tomoe at the earliest convenience."
Quickly the little vet begins to backpedal towards the door she had entered from again, cursing mentally the fact she had gone against the advice of her other friends to come and meet someone alone, especially after what happened to the three young men who were no longer here anymore because if she had just ignored the note like they had suggested, none of this would be happening. They would still be best friends and everyone would be normal.
"Tomoe isn't someone to be ashamed of, and she won't sneak around like she is. So since you don't want to be friends in public anymore, maybe we shouldn't be friends in private either!"
And with that she turns and ran as fast as her little legs could carry her, her teeth clenched as little choked sobs were already escaping despite her best attempts to keep them locked inside like the rest of her emotions.
This really was the worst day of her life, which was really saying anything
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Post by Katsu Kuno on Feb 6, 2017 6:16:21 GMT 1
[googlefont="VT323"] Computers are magnificent tools for the realization of our dreams, but no machine can replace the human spark of spirit, compassion, love, and understanding. Katsu had so much he wanted to say, so much he wanted to tell her, but he knew he couldn't say any of it. She would either think he was lying as she had accused him of just now, or she would think he was just manipulating her or confuse her even more. It was better this way. Her thinking that he was a jerk. It hurt, and physically he could truly feel a pain tugging at his heart as he tried to keep the tears from falling down his face. He just stared at her with a look of sad shock. Taking in a deep breath he considered just telling her it was all a joke and they could be friends again because he just wanted to see how she would react, but he knew he couldn't else what he was trying to do here right now would be all for naught.
"Fine. So be it. If that's what you really want, if that's what you really think I believe about you…" Katsu looked away and walked over to the door grabbing the door knob for a second though his grip wasn't tight enough to turn the knob. He kept telling himself to just leave, to just go and let this happen. It was for the better. He knew it. He knew it from the moment he found out about his disease, that was why he rejected his sister. But his feelings had gotten in the way with Tomoe. He was just so happy and he didn't want to lose his only remaining reason to live. But now… he knew he had a reason to live, and it wasn't just so he could be a selfish person who dragged Tomoe down with him. It was to protect her from this whole messed up thing they were in. Katsu took in several breaths as he thought and placed his head against the wood of the door in front of him.
"This way… when I die… you won't hurt as much." Katsu leaned back and opened the door and stared into the dark hall in front of him. "This isn't to protect myself. I'm going to die. The only thing that can stop it is someone kills another, and I would rather die. I'm a dead man walking, Tomoe. I always have since the moment I was born. I was destined to die young. And I'm on my last few days now. Since we're no longer friends… then… then…" Damn tears. He turned his face away from Tomoe so she couldn't see the tears that were starting to fall because of this right now. "Then you won't care when I die. All I ask is that you live."
With those words Katsu nearly ran from the room, down the hall, taking turns when he could to try to make sure she wouldn't be able to follow him. He ended up in the hallway, sitting on the ground, sobbing into his legs that were held tightly to his chest, the sobs echoing through the empty hall.
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